Vacation

Today I'm running in circles trying to wrap my head around the fact we are actually leaving in the morning for a long week-end. Vacation is suppose to be relaxing isn't it? Then somebody tell me how to make that happen. It sounds good on paper in planning stages but beyond that let's be honest, it's hectic! We will have fun though. WE WILL HAVE FUN darn it!! :)

The best part of this mini-vacation will be seeing our lovely daughter and her husband on Sunday. Can't wait to see you Katey!!

I need to learn to relax and just be spontaneous. All this planning is unnecessary, and as much as I know that, I'm still a Type A personality and old habits are hard to break.

RELAX.......RELAX.........RELAX

Too Blessed to Be Stressed.....Really?

Deadlines at work, deadlines at home, packing for a long week-end trip...yikes....how is it all going to get done? Stressed out!
Then I realized how much the little things make me smile. I am blessed! Even a lily popping out in my fish pond will bring me joy for days.




Hope you don't get too stressed to be blessed!

What a Monday!!

There's only about twice a year that I oversleep and usually not by much but today I woke up THREE hours after I normally would have left the house. Not good! Fortunately I have a somewhat flexible job and I won't get fired for being late but in my early morning foggy mind it's the end of the world.

There usually is a blessing in everything but I don't normally see any blessings in being bald....however....on a Monday morning when you're running late (really late) it's a huge blessing to know that your hair is clean and styled just the way you like it. All you have to do is grab it and throw it on your head!  :)

Hope you found a blessing today!

Sunny Sunday

Woke up this morning to a beautiful day! Sunday.....off to church and see some friends and family today. Not much to say other than I wish you all the best today and hope you enjoy the new fall temperatures. I personally wish these temperatures would last year 'round but of course winter is coming and we will have to adjust here in the midwest. After living in California for 9 years I can't complain because I begged to have my four seasons back.

Have a great Sunday!

Beautiful Saturday!

Today is Saturday and the sun is shining with temps in the mid 70's so who could ask for anything better? My first post was last night and truthfully I went a little deeper than I had intended. Every day is an awareness that I my head is bald. The front of our house is mainly all windows so as I pass through the kitchen or dining room I can't help but wonder who is out walking or driving by that sees me standing in my house bald. I know that sounds silly to some but it's the truth. If someone knocks on the door my first thought is where's my "hair". If someone pulls in the driveway I dash for the "hair". Curtains are great but of course I want them open to the beautiful sunlight. As soon as the sun goes down however the curtains are drawn so I have the freedom to walk about my house with the lights on and no one can see me. No one but my husband. That leads to another whole post. How can he love me when I look so different from the girl he married?

Have a great Saturday! Tell someone how much you love them no matter what they look like. We all have our burden to bear.

Introduction into my world..........

I'm assuming if you read my profile you already know that this is a release for me and to bring understanding to what living with Alopecia Areata is all about and the turmoil that happens within while you're smiling on the outside. I don't want to be gloom and doom but the reality is that it hurts...it hurts to be a woman without hair. If you're sick people know it and have compassion. If you lose your hair it's your "dirty little secret". 
My close friends and family now know but they have no idea how it has destroyed who I really am. When I'm making jokes about it I'm actually crying on the inside because I'm pretending to accept it when in fact after fifteen years I still have not accepted it at all.

I beat myself up for having these feelings however because I don't have cancer, I don't have diabetes, I'm not dying nor am I ever going to die from baldness so how dare I feel bad about this disease. It's a struggle to know how to feel. I certainly don't want pity so what is I want? I think it must be just validation that people understand.